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We all have different style for everything in life, different values, different goals, but we all do have something in common. We all want to be healthy & happy.
Last night I was just flicking through some of my old pictures looking for pictures that my hubby needed and I found this one.... Instantly I felt I want to cry! I don't have to say that this was my body before pregnancy and now the picture of my body in the mirror is looking so different. I have to admit I felt fear, again, no matter I do fitness as my job and this is what I do and live every single day, but I seriously freaked out questioning how long it will take me to get this body shape back (as I want it back!), and luckily it was a good time - time for bed, to take my thoughts with me and just to sleep over. Well, this morning, I am not sure I feel any different about my fear, but I am more realistic that this body shape is mine and can be always back and life is not just about body and perfect body image, it is about purpose to create something new, in my case, new life, who will make my life richer, happier, with a real meaning of what parenting is, EVEN leaving me with couple of stretch marks and some other changes I will experience after baby is born.
It is not easy to switch my brain from looking after my body for many, many years and now just to accept everything that is coming on daily basis with this pregnancy. Please don't get me wrong, I understand that I will forget everything when I meet my little precious, but till that moment I will go through what some women do, tears that ME time is over.
Strangely, I wonder how would be if I had chance to live next to my friends and family and many of them now have babies, it is actually many babies born in the last 3 years and I didn't have chance to be next to a single friend or family member and to see their bump growing and to listen their rants and their stories of excitement about new life coming, so I have no idea how everything should look like. Can I say I'm scared of what is going to happen? This is not anymore just about food, clean eating and hard core exercise I've done before. This is something that I don't have a control with and I am not sure how the final result will be... This is about emotional journey that I never thought about and it seems the hardest. Body will repair itself easily, I know, and I just hope to manage everything emotionally. One step at a time.....
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