Welcome to my Blog about fitness, workouts, diet and about my personal fitness journey
We all have different style for everything in life, different values, different goals, but we all do have something in common. We all want to be healthy & happy.
Are we allowed to fail? Was I allowed to fail? I know I couldn't do it any different and if I was doing it all over again I would probably do it the same way. You never think about how your emotions can affect every aspect of your life, how you can feel that everything is going out of your control and it just goes down and down taking you to the stage where you suddenly realise that you are actually in the big trouble (talking general, trouble can mean anything). So the answer to my question is we are all allowed to fail. If we don't fail we'll never learn how to appreciate what we have and who we are today.
I am proud of what I've become. and I know that process of learning and improving will continue for the rest of my life.
Gaining excessive weight gave me completely different perspective of how much it can affect for example your confidence, mood, motivation, desire for life. Gaining weight was out of my control as naturally this is what pregnancy is all about. I couldn't get rid of the fear that I will harm my baby and I couldn't relax doing exercise for the reason of even keeping fit. I wanted to do the best for my baby putting myself on the side for couple of months knowing when it comes my time I'll get back to the shape. I excluded possible depression, loss of motivation for any type of activity, circus of hormones and lack of sleep. In total I gained 30kg and I disliked every inch of my body. Nothing on me wasn't how it was before and at that time I thought I will never look the same.
3 months after birth I went back home to Croatia. When I saw pictures of my face I felt fed up and I felt I couldn't do this weight loss by myself. Depression was getting stronger and I was desperate to get out there and train. I needed help. I needed someone to talk to. I needed people to not judge me and see me as a trainer who failed to snap back to shape instantly after birth. I was walking on the back streets that no one can see me. I felt embarrassed to even see the face of someone who knew me as I could see the look on their face that they thought "oh wow, she looks fat!". I felt so fat and I thought everyone was thinking the same. Do you feel the same? I know how you feel...
All this process wasn't quick. It took me 9.5 months to be where I was before getting pregnant. This wasn't because I didn't know how to lose weight, it was dealing with my emotions, depression and lack of motivation and looking after baby all the time. If you are dealing with something that is causing you emotional distress then I know it is very difficult to even get your head around to lose weight. You need to decide that you will do something about it and be patient and consistent.
I hired personal trainer for 2 months, twice a week and lost 10kg as I couldn't motivate myself to make a start. It helped me a lot. I felt so much better about my body and about myself. I knew this was investing money in getting "me!" back. It was worth every single penny. If you are out there sitting in your room and you are afraid to go out and start exercising because you feel that people out there will judge you? Then I will tell you "Don't give a s*** what other people think!!". There opinions are irrelevant! If someone comes to you and gives you a comment about how you look and that hurts you, you should feel sorry for them how much they don't understand what are you going trough. But don't feel discouraged to get out and do something about it. Don't let it stay with you the pain you feel about your weight. Weight can be lost. Always. Don't forget that. You have to be active and eat healthy. There is no other way of doing it and to be able to keep the weight off. I don't believe in quick fixes, diets and rapid weight loss. I believe in a (oh God I know this is so boring but there is no other way to say it) changing your lifestyle. You are what you eat. Exercise helps burning calories, building muscles and helps you changing body shape. Healthy eating gives your body the right fuel to keep working and to stay healthy. My weight didn't come off easily. There were tears, sweat, but I was failing by eating foods I "wasn't allowed". That's why it took so long, but finally I got there and I am proud. I am proud that as a woman I manage to look after my baby boy, to look after the house and keep it clean and tidy, to keep healthy my family and to still teach 4 bootcamps and PT clients. Now I am happier I have ever been. Everything that we get on the harder way we appreciate it more. We have to fight for what we believe is good for us. You have to fight for your health. Then your body will do the job for itself.
I really don't want you to mean that I want to use this blog to promote myself, but I truly, truly believe that the workouts I teach in my bootcamps are so effective that can help you not just to lose weight, but to get your body in great shape and to get your self esteem back. Which I believe now is priceless. Remember I believe in slow process of weight loss as you have to learn how to keep your weight off as well!
If you don't want to join my bootcamps now cos you are not convinced that I know what I am doing, you will hear about testimonials soon from your friends and hopefully that will give you enough courage to join. It is fun, you can talk to me about anything you like any time and I will be there to listen and to support you on your fitness journey. You have nothing to lose to give it a go.
Bootcamp free trials start on the w/c 7th April in Newmarket and Cambridge.
***If you have a baby or a child and you can't manage childcare then 9.30am bootcamp is for you as I bring Hugo with me every time.
For more info about bootcamp location, times and prices click HERE
If you want to sign up for Free trials please click HERE
Hopefully this will encourage someone that you never lose a hope and that you never give up to lose weight as weight comes off. Always. .
Thanks for listening. I feel much better now.
Passionate about fitness, happiness, dreams!