Welcome to my Blog about fitness, workouts, diet and about my personal fitness journey
We all have different style for everything in life, different values, different goals, but we all do have something in common. We all want to be healthy & happy.
Almost exactly 6 months ago I couldn't wait any longer to pop out with a little baby who was growing inside me for the longest 9.5 months in my life! Those 9.5 months made me a completely different person and the most complete I've ever felt before. Pregnancy in general was very unpleasant experience which I disliked from the beginning till the end. Don't get me wrong here, I absolutely love for what purpose you have to be pregnant. I struggled with morning sickness till I was 4 months where I already piled so much weight and of course ME being always sensitive about my weight I Knew this will be very tough journey. No matter how much everyone was telling me that this is only temporary and that I will "snap back" into my shape as soon as I have birth, I knew it will not be the way they were talking about... As we wanted to keep gender as a surprise, I struggled through the whole pregnancy to connect with a baby. Every time I went to the shop I didn't know where to look at.. Blue or pink things... Normally my shopping went this way - walk in walk out! So I ended decorating baby's room with cheeky monkeys, yellow and green color. It ended actually quite cool. I didn't buy much clothes either. So boring to buy white, yellow, green clothes! I was quite grumpy, miserable pregnant woman especially looking myself in the mirror. I can't even explain how devastated I was seeing my body going trough such a transformation!! ARRGGGHHHH!!! I GAINED 30 KG / 4.5 STONE!!!!!! Seriously, don't even tell me "You were pregnant!"!! I failed in my own profession to keep my body fit and healthy, I failed with my knowledge about nutrition to eat right foods as I was eating all bad things you can imagine and I never thought it will happen to me. But it did. No one and no words of support would make me feel better. So I dealt with it in my own way. In silence...
BUT Everything was so worth it!!! All those problems with body image, sickness, overeating, depression, freckles ALL OVER my face, sciatica pain, weight gain etc, was FORGOTTEN when for the first time I've seen my little boy. Everyone says about their child "He is so perfect!", so I am joining the club saying my little Hugo is so perfect from the day 1 I've met him. He was born on the 31st of May, weighing 9lb 5oz or 4.220kg. He had lots of hair and I never thought my baby will be a boy! When they put him in my hands, the first thing I felt was the warmth of his little body, I've seen lots of dark hair and those perfect fingers and toes.... I didn't sob which I thought I would! I felt peaceful and so happy that he is finally here with me!
And the journey of motherhood started...
These are couple of shots that you can see in how wonderful state I was.
I am proud to say that after couple of months of hard work - overcoming my "not bothered" attitude and finally becoming more determined to come back in "shape" where I was before. It will take some time and discipline, but I will not give up to feel amazing and to look just like that as well. For me it doesn't matter what other people think because I am my best judge and I think that every single woman should invest time to learn HOW to eat healthy, how to exercise and how to make herself beautiful. Life isn't long enough to live through moaning and finding excuses all the time that you WISH you were prettier or slimmer. When we were born we've got the opportunity to make the best possible life we can have. Having a stressful life, relationships, kids are just tons of excuses that we blame for our lost motivation to look after ourselves.
SO, after seeing these pictures you can see that even a trainer can get big and we have to lose all that weight on the same way as you have to. Give yourself some credit that failing is FINE, but don't lie to yourself that is fine to complain and do nothing about change. Couple of years ago when some of my clients were telling me "you don't know how is to be a mum" (wanting to tell me how hard it is, especially if we spoke about weight), but now I am there and I know how much we feel sensitive about our body image and how long it takes for confidence to disappear. I'm still struggling with my own lack of confidence and I am not happy where I am right now, but that doesn't mean I will sit and feel sorry for myself and do nothing about it. I am happy to be a mum and I want one day to make Hugo happy that his mum is cool, fit and healthy, just like I loved seeing my mum!
If you want to make something for yourself, you can join me on my After Xmas Detox Week, starting 30th December and we will together make New Start for your New You heck more details on this link or contact me if you want to know more details via email firstname.lastname@example.org
Have a fab Xmas and speak very soon :)))
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